"Please Forgive Me"

xhStill feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss, it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one.
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love you longer
You still turn the fire on...

So if you're feelin' lonely ‒ don't
You're the only one I ever want.
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should...

Please forgive me ‒ I know not what I do.
Please forgive me ‒ I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through...
Please forgive me if I need you like I do.
Please believe me, every word I say is true...
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you

Still feels like our best times are together.
Feels like the first touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough.
Still holdin' on, you're still number one.
I remember the smell of your skin,
I remember everything,
I remember all your moves I remember you, yeah!
I remember the nights, you know I still do.

So if you're feelin' lonely ‒ don't
You're the only one I ever want.
I only wanna make it good
So if I love you a little more than I should...

Please forgive me ‒ I know not what I do.
Please forgive me ‒ I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through.
Please forgive me if I need you like I do
Oh, believe me ‒ every word I say is true.
Please forgive me ‒ I can't stop loving you.

One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love.
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong.
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

Please forgive me ‒ I know not what I do.
Please forgive me ‒ I can't stop lovin' you.
Don't deny me, this pain I'm going through.
Please forgive me if I need you like I do.
Babe, believe me ‒ every word I say is true.
Please forgive me if I can't stop loving you.
Never leave me ‒ I don't know what I'd do.
Please forgive me ‒ I can't stop loving you,
Can't stop loving you.

So if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
...if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
...our best times are together...
...touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough...
Still holdin' on, still number one
I remember the smell of your skin...everything
...all your moves...you, yeah!
...the nights ya know I still do...
...One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
...Never leave me I don't know what I'd do...

i am fat

I was once was a very plum girl. And then I put an effort to push some of the kgs away and I really manage to do so.
But after some time, my friends told me that I look older than my age when I m slimmer. So, I suppose that I'll look younger with some of the fats shown on my face.
Now, I am gaining 5kgs in no time. I m feeling a bit heavy (not prettier)..ahhaah and not even (younger) hahhahaha
Well, this should be fine. To watch out calorie and carbohydrate intake.

Love him yes, love him not

Love is define as the most spectacular,indescribable, deep euphoric feeling for someone. 

Love is an incredibly powerful word. When you're in love, you always want to be together, and when you're not, you're thinking about being together because you need that person and without them your life is incomplete. 

This love is unconditional affection with no limits or conditions: completely loving someone. It's when you trust the other with your life and when you would do anything for each other. When you love someone you want nothing more than for them to be truly happy no matter what it takes because that's how much you care about them and because their needs come before your own. You hide nothing of yourself and can tell the other anything because you know they accept you just the way you are and vice versa. 

It's when they're the last thing you think about before you go to sleep and when they're the first thing you think of when you wake up, the feeling that warms your heart and leaves you overcome by a feeling of serenity. Love involves wanting to show your affection and/or devotion to each other. It's the smile on your face you get when you're thinking about them and miss them. 

Love can make you do anything and sacrifice for what will be better in the end. Love is intense,and passionate. Everything seems brighter, happier and more wonderful when you're in love. If you find it, don't let it go.

One word frees us of all the weight and pain of life: 

That word is love. 

Hypocrite

Some people tend to deny the true facts where actually they felt it too.

Friends

Do you have friends?
Do you ever have true friends that you will always adore their present?
Do you ever have true friends that you wish to talk to them at all times?
Do you ever have true friends that you wish to look at their face and it will immediately wash away your worries?

Have you ever had friends who willing to be there for you no matter what?

Do you ever notice that your friends might be one of your enemy too?

Do you ever notice that your friends might left you behind too?

Do you really have friends to talk to when you need them the most?

Life

Some people ought to be happy. They live a happy and luxury life.

But.....

Some people being ignored.

Some people are left behind.

Some people are just meant nothing to some others.

Kota Kinabalu

Dear KK,

Would you dance, if I ask you to dance.
Would you...

I m clueless.
I m speechless.
I m broke.

I m done.

Kerana Terpaksa Aku Relakan

When he said, this is an A, so it will definitely has to be an A.

When you said so, I will always have to follow.
Thanks,

Love is in the air

Love is

1. 1.

   a strong feeling of affection.

   "babies fill parents with intense feelings of love"

   synonyms:

   deep affection, fondness, tenderness, warmth, intimacy, attachment,endearment;
2. 2.

   a great interest and pleasure in something.

   "his love for football"

   synonyms:

   liking, weakness, partiality, bent, leaning, proclivity, inclination,disposition;

1. 1.

   feel deep affection or sexual love for (someone).

   "do you love me?"

   synonyms:

   be in love with, be infatuated with, be smitten with, be besotted with,be passionate about;

Rendang Ayam (Homemade Rendang Gravy)

1 kg ayam (bersihkan)
2 sudu besar kerisik
1 helai daun kunyit (dihiris halus)
1 keping asam keping
1/2 kotak santan kotak (size kecil)
garam dan gula secukup rasa


bahan kisar hingga halus:
1 inci halia
2 biji bawang besar
2 batang serai
2 inci kunyit hidup
3 biji buah keras
4 inci lengkuas
10 biji cili api
sedikit air

cara-cara:
panaskan kuali. masukkan bahan kisar dan ayam dan kacau sebati.
bila air ayam dah agak kering, masukkan kerisik, asam keping dan santan.
tambah air mengikut kesukaan. masak sampai naik minyak ataupun sehingga agak kering.
perasakan dengan gula dan garam secukup rasa. bila semua bahan dah sebati, masukkan daun kunyit dan kacan sehingga sebati.

sekarang, ianya siap untuk dihidangkan.

*sekarang tak perlu nak beli paste bagai. buat sendiri kan lagi senang. instant paste tu belum tentu baik untuk kesihatan.

ahaks...:)

Frozen Cheese Cake with Salted Cheese Cracker (Melted Yumminess)

The ingredients:
Dutch Lady Low Fat Milk
1 small can of Evaporated Milk
1 small box of Nestle Creamer
1 box of Salted Cheese Cracker
250gm of Philadephia cheese

1) Mix the Philadephia cheese with creamer and mix well. Add in the evaporated milk and mix well.
2) Dip the cracker into the low fat milk.
3) Arrange the cracker in the flat bowl and pour in the cheese batter.
4) Cover the batter with the cracker and repeat the same process until finish.

Now, its done. You may now enjoy this yummy cake.

Ayam Masak Merah

1kg ayam (bersihkan dan goreng sehingga setengah masak)
1 biji bawang besar (dimayang bulat)
4 biji cili api (untuk hiasan)
1 batang kulit kayu manis
2 biji buah pelaga
4 biji bunga cengkih
1 kuntum bunga lawang
1 batang serai (dititik)
2 sudu besar sos cili
1 sudu besar sos tomato
1 keping asam keping
1 biji tomato (dibelah empat)
1 mangkuk air
garam dan gula secukup rasa
minyak untuk menumis (boleh gunakan minyak goreng ayam)

bahan untuk dikisar halus:
1 biji bawang besar
1 biji bawang putih
2 batang serai
1 inci halia
1 inci kunyit hidup
1 inci lengkuas
20 biji cili kering (direbus)
sedikit air

cara membuat:
Panaskan minyak dan masukkan bunga lawang, bunga cengkih, kulit kayu manis dan buah pelaga. Masak sehingga naik bau. Selepas itu, angkat kesemua bahan ini supaya rasa tidak terlalu kuat. Kemudian masukkan bahan kisar dan 1 mangkuk air. Masakkan sampai naik minyak dan agak kering serta cili telah betul-betul masak.

Bila bahan kisar dh masak, masukkan gula, garam, sos cili, sos tomato, asam keping dan juga serai yang dititik. Kacau sehingga rata dan sesuaikan rasanya.

Bila semua dah rasa ok dan secukup rasa, masukkan ayam yang telah digoreng tadi, cili api, bawang mayang dan tomato. Kacau sehingga rata dan biarkan sekejap. Bila semua bahan sudah sebati, tutup api dan ianya sudah siap untuk dihidangkan.

Resipi Sambal Hijau

Its been a while since my last post (cliche) but its okay. I dun mind that. Below are my recipe for Sambal Hijau (Green Chili Paste)

Bahan2:
2 biji cili hijau
1 biji cili merah
2 biji bawang besar
3 ulas bawang putih
1 sudu kecil udang kering
1 batang serai
1 genggam cili api

Mula-mula masukkan bawang besar, bawang putih, udang kering dan serai. Kisar sampai halus. Kemudian masukkan cili hijau, cili merah dan cili api dan sedikit air dalam kisaran pertama tadi, kisar kasar jak.

Lepas tu, goreng. Senang jak nak buat ni. Orang malas jak yang tak dapat buat ni. Huhu

New Job for 2014

I have been sticking here for almost  3 years now and I couldn't figure out  if I am happy or not with it. I wish to let go but can I?

Am I at fault to built this bonding until that I do not know how to stop?

Saw somebody writes in their blog about how unhappy they are in the work environment, co-workers and stuff like that.

And they managed to maintain at least 15 years and above just to pay for their living expenses.

And one of them ever said, if you think that there is a need of changes, voice it out clearly. It is not wrong to say it. You are just afraid of the impact it might bring once you pop out the question.

So, be wise. Its a new year. I came back to the office and there is many things waiting for me to follow-up. This is not a job that I think I want to spend my 10 years with but if I were to be the only supporter of my family, I still have to do it.

I cannot deny this fact.

One more thing that I scared of is (one of my bff ever mentioned this) I am scared of losing all of my belonging. I am scared of being hopeless. I am scared of being the one that I don't want to be. I am trying my best to keep it all for myself. But who knew He might want to take it away from me someday. I am scared I might forgotten about Him. That is my biggest fear.

What am I raving about? I m clueless too. :)

Pretty Thoughts

I saw this in my heart. My heart is darken by the international issue.

Until that I forget to maintain my own self. Why is this happening?

Sometimes, we let go something pretty for something prettier. But don't you think that it will gets ugly too in the end?

Pretty New Year Resolution (2014)

Its been a while since my last note. I don't know where to begin but I have to start it anyway anyhow.

For many people, new year might bring all the beautiful things in your life. For some, there is so much to learn, prepare, repair, fix, done and so forth. Where should I begin?

Sometimes, I thought I envy others. How I wish I were her. How I wish he was mine. How I wish I was to chose this before. But in the end, I mean in this new year I learn that I don't envy you. I don't envy of what you have. I don't envy your big house.

What makes me envy you is because you hand an apple to that beggars. How I wish I could do that too.

I envy you when you said that you need to be home to take care of your sick mother. I envy you when you said that you need to spend some time with your little one.

I envy you when you said that you need to attend a mass. I envy you when you said you need to collect some payment of large amount. I envy how you had worked so hard for the payment.

I envy you when you said that you would repay my fuel for sending you home. I envy you when you said you would buy me lunch though you do not have enough for yourself.

I envy your thoughts. I envy your imagination of marriage that it might broke one day where I always believe that yourself is the key to the unbroken relationship.

I envy you for having a thorough understanding on certain things and you do not fight over it. I envy you for being so good and kind to your kids without the needs of spanking them over.

I envy those people who sell the vegetable at the market and there is only RM1 extra to add to the costing. I envy your time and guidance to others. I envy you so much that I can't explain.

This is just a beginning. I don't wish for it to go on wild without a single pretty painting.

May everyone be safe always this year. May those in sickness have a speed recovery. May those in sadness bury their pain in time. May those have the tears of joy will always be the same.

May me do not stop envy others' thought and kind habit. May me keep on learning to be a better person from day to day.